Risk, Serendipity, and Going all in

This is going to sound weird because I’m not a believer in “The Secret,” or manifestation in that sense, and I don’t really like to talk too much about myself, or at all really, but… There is a rare and very real universal expression wherein the participant (in this case me) lies before the world with their mind, body, and soul fully exposed, so much so that they open themselves to any outcome that may Read more…

Back in the Saddle

Must be something about New Year’s Eve that drags me back to the keyboard. As I sit here and look at my last post, dated exactly 4 years ago, I can’t help but smile at the truth and the irony captured in the words I wrote that day. Though I plan to write more about the gap between then and now in the coming months, the short version of the story is that yes, my Read more…

The Chaos in My Head

We’re all a little weird to someone. Often times to ourselves. The true measure of a man is how long it takes him to claim it as his own. I’m not inside your head, so I can’t speak to that, but if my personal experience is any indication, I believe that most of us live in a series of cycles, or patterns. In my case, the pendulum swings from full-on intellectual challenge, money, intellectual growth, Read more…

Why I Stopped Setting Goals

When I was younger, in my late teens and early twenties, I had a Franklin Planner, within which my life was planned, sorted, and annotated in great detail. I used this planner to set tasks, appointments, and in the back, a great set of goals I had hoped to achieve within the year, five years, and ten years. For a while I was convinced, obsessed, with the idea that setting goals was a necessary part Read more…

Facing Your Artistic Demons

Sometimes when I write, in fact most times, it feels like the walls are closing in on me. It starts with a compelling feeling that I must write, so I sit down and start typing…but then nothing comes, and I start to panic. The feeling of thinking I was on my way to wordsmithing gold was quickly replaced by a feeling that I wasn’t just going to waste a great writing opportunity, but the entire Read more…

Why My Writing Sucks

I don’t know if what I do is normal for someone that fancies themselves as a writer, but I tear up almost everything I write, and when I can’t tear it up because it’s digital, such as this blog post, then I simply hit delete, wipe, and empty trash.  Most of what I wrote between 2008 and 2010 is either hidden, re-saved as a draft, or has returned to the source Neo style, with no Read more…

Building Your Bankroll

Lately, thanks to the tutelage (harsh judgment, scorn, and ridicule) of my friend Jordan Cooper, I’ve begun trying to learn how to play poker for money. Aside from learning how to use the game mechanics to my advantage, another aspect of the game that I’ve been dedicating a lot of time to is that of the bankroll. In case you’re unfamiliar with the term, a bank roll is your lifeline, and you use the value of Read more…